In my work, indeed I am perfectionist. I wish to make it all perfect, however it is not possible because as a Perceiver I can start many topics and leave them as messy drafts, yet in some of my favorite topics I spent a HUGE time improving my texts over and over again, to bring them to perfection. Namely, mathematics courses, you can see the perfection I brought there: Set Theory and Foundations of Mathematics
. But isn't that the necessary condition for it to be worth anything at all ? This world is full of millions of course notes of maths and physics which are all similar kinds of messy drafts. Every professor adds to that global mess his own additional quickly made draft, without anything really better in it than what others already did. What is the point then ????Finally, I am very upset at some others :
I am very angry at authorities. As a perfectionist I can
neither grasp nor tolerate how people in positions of
authority can take authoritarian decisions, especially of the
form "I am the authority, very serious, and I declare that for
being serious and prove one's seriousness anyone must believe
this and dedicate themselves to follow this and that duties
and requirements" while having NOT done everthing to ensure to
design these requirements in any correct manner. Because it is
such a dangerous trap : being serious it is a big trouble for
me to suspect them to have not been as serious as they claim
to be in the design of duties they assigned to me. So I feel
obliged to give my life to follow their advice and I may keep
following very far down that pit until I dare to criticize,
but then I cannot forgive. I know 3 kinds of these : the
academic people, who in the name of science and intelligence
decide what students should learn and to what exams they
should prepare. Religious people, who claim to speak in the
name of God's wisdom and how anyone serious should give one's
life to God. And psychiatrists.
I do believe in the need of death penalty (and I spend much of
my time praying God to send to hell), to punish these
impostors whose actions are precisely those likely to destroy
the lives of the best and most serious people, by that way of
making the naive serious people feel obliged "for being
serious" to give and thus waste their life to such so
carelessly designed shit. More comments : Why Goodness is Evil