Why Goodness Is Evil
Introduction, and what will this NOT be about
This phrase "Goodness Is Evil" looks crazy, I know. A google search
on this phrase gives, in the first 8 results pages (80 first
results) no significant result except this
one (the idea that the success in "being good" actually
consists in a success in the work mistaking others as evil, so as to
feel oneself better by contrast : I also mentioned it,
but I only see it as part of the picture : while I see the problem
he points out as often occurring indeed, especially with religions,
I do not see it as universal, and I will have much more to say on
the topic).
Most others come either by grammatical accident, or from Christians
either proudly accusing the rest of the world of having negative
values, or blaming the natural human goodness (yes, the positive
goodness !) as evil in God's eyes (notice the contradiction ! if God
does not like human goodness, then God must be the one seeing
morality upside down, hating goodness and praising evil, or what ?).
My goal here will be to refute the last leg of argument how
Spirituality defends itself :
When they pretend to be just all about goodness and nothing else,
and especially no other indoctrination, we may observe, and I have
argued elsewhere, that it is always damn lies to pretend that this
is really what they are about
(This is actually never the case: the truth is that they are all
about indoctrination and little about goodness, since anyway, what
else than indoctrination could they be about ? What the heck might
they really mean by "being all about goodness" ? Are they pretending
to be "teaching goodness" ? Does it mean repeating 100 times "Good
is good, good is good, bad is bad, good is good ?" or what else
might it mean, except of course... developing a system of mutually
contradictory teachings about it, like those mentioned above, in
order to have then great fun struggling with the mutually
conflicting consequences ? for me, the very idea of teaching
goodness does not make any sense: to be authentic, goodness is
natural or is not. It must come from nature, with no need of
teaching, and even when nature is not enough to produce goodness, I
cannot see the realistic sense of a plan B for how else goodness may
be fabricated, any more than a sense of trying to teach science
to those who don't have the natural ability to
learn it by themselves).
But, since they fail to understand this and will keep believing that
they are on the side of goodness in a way or another, now comes that
last argument : so what ? Where is the value of goodness? I will
explain : this goodness so much valued by spirituality, is in fact
(often) evil.
They may say, if I reject the value of goodness, then I reject all
values, I am immoral. But no. I do have values, however I do not
consider goodness as one of them. At least not in average (it
depends on context). Not that my values are not moral: I do put
morality as paramount. But precisely because I put moral values as
paramount, I must reject goodness as a negative value, because I
found it to be immoral (at least sometimes, and not exceptionally).
But then, what the heck may I be talking about : which is the
goodness that I can reject as evil ?
In the face of this question, religious people will react with their
traditional guess, their explanation: of course we should reject the
fake goodness, that which appears like goodness but is not really
so.
But what is "fake goodness", in their opinion ?
Fake goodness, they say, according to the Gospel, is the goodness
done by people in public, when they are really looking not for the
good but for making positive impression on others. So the problem is
that their intention is not pure.
To this I will reply : so fucking what ? Why invent a problem of the
fact that some people might keep an "impure heart" while they are
doing the good, just because they would be doing it "in public" (in
a way or another) and we may argue that, in doing so, they are
actually not purely looking for the good as a goal in itself but for
an advantage, either a material or a moral one (being praised,
making more friends) ? By the way, when Christians (or other
religious people) are doing some good "in secret", aren't they
committing the exact same sin they are criticizing there, since all
good actions they do are essentially like they were done "in public"
and in order to make good impression for earning either friendship
or some advantage from this public, with the only futile difference
that the role of the public is now played by God himself (which they
consider to be monitoring all their actions) ?
So, since by its very nature, Christian morality fails to fulfill
its own special standards of what it calls "authentic goodness", I
hardly see which lesson of authenticity of goodness they might be
teaching to explain the problem of what I might see wrong with the
goodness of... non-christians (of course they will always
automatically presume the lack of authenticity to only concern the
goodness of others, not of themselves, needless for this to even
bother reading the below descriptions of what is it exactly that I
see wrong with usual goodness). And the effective fact is that what
I see wrong with usual goodness has nothing to do with its being
"fake" according to this criterion.
Why would this "impurity" of goodness make it wrong at all, anyway ?
More precisely, if we look at the phrase "Goodness done in public
with the intention of getting praise or whatever, is wrong", my
question would be, what means "wrong" in this phrase ? It reminds me
a video I once saw on youtube (I forgot the reference), the question
was : if way A would lead you to hell while way B would lead you to
heaven, but God wants you to follow way A anyway (which will lead
you to hell), then which meaning may the word "wants" actually have
in this phrase ? So, if practicing goodness in public is "wrong", is
it only because it leads you to hell or what ?
An argument may be: purity of intentions would not matter IF people
doing good things in public are actually also doing good in average,
rather than publicly giving by one hand what they secretly take by
the other ; but the care for "purity" or "authenticity" becomes
morally legitimate in the opposite assumption, when a fault in this
authenticity would actually result in concrete acts of corruptions,
the world going wrong due to wrong things done in secret by the same
people doing the good in public. This indeed may happen, but is not
always the case. Anyway I consider it a quite twisted and
superstitious criticism of a form of goodness, to see it as bad, not
that it would be harmful in itself, but in the fact that it only
applies to parts of the issues (those publicly visible), and that
some sort of malediction over it (and over the souls of its
practitioners) would mysteriously lead its practice to be
automatically paid for by counterparts where this particular form of
goodness is not applicable (i.e. for things done in secret).
Indeed, while it may happen that those doing good things in public
do bad ones in private, this is no way automatic. Moreover,
considering that so many people
are very lazy-thinking by nature and totally unable or
exhausted by any mental effort, I doubt many people would be ready
to develop all the mental effort needed for maintaining a
discrepancy between their public and private actions : for most of
them, the mere mental effort to consciously do so would be so
exhausting that it will be their best self-interest to be coherent.
And for many people, no matter if it would be exhausting or not,
such a discrepancy would just simply be too unnatural.
But my point here will be that, according to my moral values, I
neither care if the good is done in public or secret, nor the
motivation of the person doing it (might it be the search for
popularity for material advantages or friendship, or the search for
"popularity" in God's eyes for going to heaven or for the simple
value of "loving God", or might it be the laziness of fleeing the
burden to think about doing wrong when any such thoughts would be
bothering and unpractical, or just the fact that it may be simply
natural to do good without the question "why" making any sense to
the person). I neither care if either method would actually lead to
heaven or hell, nor if God "wants" you to follow one way rather than
the other (nobody can tell anyway, and I think that, for God to be
decent, it's up to any God to adapt his judgment on actions to how
they really work in practice, not up to us to adapt our "morality"
to any God's whimsical judgment). And it does not even matter to me
whether the good or bad things done, are done by humans or by
robots.
I dismiss all these distinctions as vain and senseless, having
nothing to do with genuinely moral issues ; nothing of this has
anything to do with what I see wrong with goodness.
The only thing that morally matters to me is that the right actions
are effectively done, with effective results to the fate of the
world and the progress of livability of this planet.
But this is precisely the reason why I see goodness as evil.
So, what will it be about
Of course, the phrase "goodness is evil" would make no sense if
the words "evil" and "good" were simply interpreted as the
opposite of each other. Of course they are the opposite of each
other, except that each one is ambiguous, so that they are no more
opposite when interpreted differently.
The ambiguity, things to be distinguished, is between:
- Internal goodness : what is "deeply inside" someone.
- External goodness: what are the effective results of someone's
actions on the rest of the world
My position is the exact opposite of that of religious people
(who value internal goodness as the authentic one and dismiss the
external one as fake and superficial):
- I dismiss any consideration for internal goodness as fake an
superficial. What could be the sense of it anyway ? Those who
care for their internal goodness, are in fact only caring about
themselves, and about having internal "qualities" to be proud
of. But this is pure arrogance and the exact opposite of what
internal goodness was supposed to be about. So, by nature, any
issue of internal goodness is doomed to remain nothing more than
a huge game of self-contradictions. This quest for internal
goodness can become a fantastic game indeed, that many people
may see as the endless quest of their life, precisely because of
its hopeless self-contradictions, by which the only ones who can
win this game are those who don't play it fairly or
authentically and thus fail to notice how intrinsically evil
their intrinsic goodness made them to be.
- I value external goodness as the authentic one: my definition
for a goodness to be authentic, consists in this goodness
being deeply external.
So, goodness is evil, in the sense that internal goodness is
externally evil. Goodness is something fake and superficial, not
because it is not something deep inside the person, but because it
is. Being internal means being superficial, because what a person
sees and understands in his deepest self and own consciousness,
about his own actions and his own motivations, is only the surface
of the world, the surface of the role that his actions actually
play in the real world.
How is it possible ?
The question is, does internal goodness contribute positively or
negatively to external goodness ?
Many people would see it trivial, as, they can easily find many
simple, obvious times when it contributes positively : that good
intentions can bring people to do good things. But my point is
that there are other times when its contribution is negative, and
they are no less important in average than the positive ones.
And despite the importance of these negative contributions,
people usually ignore them, precisely because of their nature:
that these events are, by nature, hidden and hard to figure out.
They are hidden by nature precisely because, due the nature of
their process, as soon as people would find ways to easily figure
them out, they would not occur anymore. So, they occur precisely
because they remain unnoticed.
Here is the problem : when someone has "good motivations", can it
lead him to correctly discern and take decisions that will
effectively make him more helpful to the rest of the world, than
if he didn't ?
It would be the case if he was correctly able to measure and
compare the consequences on others of his diverse options, at
least enough correctly for being more helpful in average when
trying than not.
But is he ? Note that this issue is a matter of knowledge, not a
matter of internal goodness anymore.
So, you can see why the problem is hidden: if it was clear that
goodness leads someone to take a wrong decision, and if it was
clear enough that he noticed it by himself, then he would
immediately stop taking this wrong decision and the problem would
be solved. But it isn't.
First example
How big may this problem be ? I see it huge, while others don't.
Who is right, and who is wrong ?
In fact, this reflective question: the question to qualify which
is the "right" or "wrong" answer on this question of how big the
problem is, is the first illustration of this problem itself.
Indeed, when trying to "morally" qualify such beliefs as being by
themselves expressions of internal goodness or badness, then of
course the belief that it is small (that goodness is good) is an
expression of internal goodness, while the belief that it is a big
problem (that goodness is evil), is an expression of internal
badness, because they are measures of how sane or insane you judge
other people to be: believing them to be sane enough to succeed
behaving better when they care (i.e. they are good) than when they
don't care, is a positive attitude to people, an expression of
goodness ; on the contrary, believing them to be so insane that
they will behave worse if they care than if they don't, is an
awful insult to them, an expression of internal badness.
On the other hand, the issue of qualifying such beliefs in
externally moral terms (as forms of external goodness or external
badness), is a completely different issue : it is the issue of how
such beliefs fit with reality. Because you can better
succeed to manage the world for the good if you have the correct
belief of how it actually works, than if you don't.
Finally, the question whether this example is actually an example of
the discrepancy between internal and external goodness (so that
goodness here is evil) is determined by how it goes for the average
of the rest of issues. And to find out how it actually is, is a
matter of reality check : taking examples of experiences of the
effects of goodness in the real world, and seeing how it goes there.
Reasoning in the abstract (as religions usually do) with purely
theoretical ideas on human behavior, to assess how such or such
theoretical expectation about it may feel, cannot suffice; the true
answer needs to come from the reality of experience.
So if I concluded that goodness is evil, it is not because any
abstract logic determined this, but because, contrary to my initial
positive expectations, this is what I experienced in real life. I
only developed logical descriptions afterwards, as those found to
best account for the independent reality of experience.
So I will give more concrete examples, but later. Let us develop
more generalities first.
What makes it so bad
Bad actions done out of goodness, are made intrinsically worse by
nature than those done out of badness, for the following reason:
If your problem was "only" to deal with bad people around, possible
cases may be:
- If they are just selfish caring for their own business and not
caring about you, they would not go to harm you : you could just
avoid them and that would be okay.
- If they tried to do bad things to you (may it be for their
profit to abuse you, or for any vicious pleasure to harm you),
you would still have natural means to try defending yourself,
either by fleeing or by fighting back. In average you would have
as much power and intelligence to defend yourself, than they
have to try to harm you. In these conditions, wise and clever
people still often have means to cope, to defend themselves :
they can often naturally avoid them or send them to hell and it
will be okay, avoiding harm.
- If you still can't send them to hell before they harm you,
then bad for you ; but then, once victim of their bad actions,
you can still have a last chance to find peace in your soul by
praying God to send them to hell in the afterlife.
However, how can you cope in the face of people trying to come and
harm your life, not because they are bad people, but because they
are good people, motivated to destroy your life by their good
intention of trying to help you, with the "only" problem that their
good intention actually pushes them to harm you because they heavily
misunderstand the reality of your needs ? By its very nature, the
goodness of these people can be very dangerous to you, by the
devastating power it has to annihilate your natural defense system,
at least if you do not have yourself the necessary expertise to know
for sure that they are wrong, that not only you really do not need
what they believe you need, but also, that it would really badly
harm you (so that you really should not take the risk to try their
help just to be polite).
So, compared to the previous case, their deeply internal
goodness is itself evil, by its way of making it much
harder for you to cope with their presence by sending them to
hell before it is too late and your life is spoiled.
And this evil of goodness does not only apply before it is too late,
but also after this : once the internal goodness of people
succeeded, thus more powerfully than what any internal badness could
have done, to actually spoil your life, it also kills the chance for
you to find peace in your heart after this by praying God to send
them to hell in the afterlife for the bad things they did to you.
Or at least, it would take you a lot of courage to still dare doing
so.
Because, so, what is exactly this fault they were guilty of, which
was actually the most devastating factor causing the destruction of
your life, if not this very thing which had the power to annihilate
your natural defense system and thus leave you defenseless under the
power of their devastating mistakes : the fault of having really
been "deeply", "authentically" good in themselves (in their sense of
"authentic", not mine), and having practiced their goodness by
caring for you and trying to do the best they could for you ?
So, having to pray God to send them to hell precisely for this
fault, is quite a heavy burden indeed. And who could best cope with
such a task without too much trouble, do you think ?
Here is the fact : when a world is plagued by the domination of the
evil power of goodness, it still gives one kind of people the
privilege of the best opportunity (ability) to cope with this burden
by managing, without too much trouble, to send the good people to
hell, as well before or after it is too late : this privilege is
naturally that of the bastards.
From these considerations, we can deduce a likeliness for the world
to go through cycles : a reign of goodness naturally leads to a
reign of badness, and vice versa.
If I am rude by these words, what about them ?
Some people reading the above may feel outraged at the idea of
sending people to hell for their goodness. However, should I point
out that if I dare using those words, it is only because these "good
people" started this game themselves, even though they are in denial
about it (I mean, they did not intend to) : they insisted
that if I wanted to be good, wise, open-minded and so on, then I
should accept their "help" and "kind advice"... which actually
turned out to be the path to hell for me.
And effectively it is indeed at their request (and because I am
naturally shy, trusting people, not daring to contradict them and so
on, in clear : that I am good in the way they insisted I should be
good), that I followed the path to hell.
So the real fact is that they first did send me to hell, by
precisely requesting me to go there, in a way which was precisely
effective due to my goodness. In these conditions, that they found
it good to first effectively send me to hell for my goodness, while
I was innocent and did not harm anyone (yet) with my own goodness,
what should be the problem if I wish them the same in return, while
they are guilty of doing it first ? Maybe, an important difference
that makes it look more shocking and may be considered as a reason
to see me more "guilty" of it, is that my way of sending them to
hell for their goodness is explicit, consciously done, while their
way of sending me to hell for my goodness is unconscious, done
without willing nor noticing it, namely hidden from their own
conscience. But, if the lesson of spirituality is that the
good done in secret should be seen more valuable (as it may be more
efficient) than the one done in the open, why should not we also
consider that an act usually seen as "bad", such as the act of
sending someone to hell for his goodness, is made worse by being
done in the shadow and less serious when done explicitly in the open
? And indeed, the fact is that their way of sending me to hell for
my goodness is precisely made more effective by being done in the
shadow, while mine is made less effective by being explict. So, why
should not the difference of moral qualifications for these acts
follow as well ? But to better understand this phenomenon, let us
analyze it in details.
A more detailed analysis
We shall see that each one of us has deeply moral reasons for the
need of sending the other to hell for his goodness, though the exact
reason differs from step to step (with 4 steps in total : Step 1 and
Step 3 = my moral needs/reasons to send them to hell for their
goodness ; Step 2 and Step 4 = their moral needs/reasons to send me
to hell for my goodness).
To be precise, we should distinguish two steps, and thus two
scenarii I would order by preference : Plan A and Plan B.
Plan A, would have been to avoid in the first place the event that
they spoiled my life by their "help". This could have happened in 2
ways:
- A1 = They abstained from trying to bring their "help" in the
first place.
- A2 = Step 1 = They try, but I protect myself from their help
by telling them to go to hell (how could I dare ?).
Let us comment further about Plan A2, because its role as Step 1 of
ones need to send the other to hell for his goodness, is in fact
only a misunderstanding. If, in the face of people coming to try
helping me (and before they actually succeeded to harm my life by
their help), I told them to go to hell, it would not really mean,
either that I really wished them to go to hell, nor that there would
be (either in reality or in any reasonable expectation, at least in
my humble conception of "reasonable"), anything effective in this
call, to make them actually go there at my request. Instead, my
idea (my only real purpose and basic expectation by these words)
would have only been to invite them to accept Plan A1, even if they
still remain free to go to hell if they really want to. I admit
that this point may be hard to understand,
however it is crucial. Two factors may explain the misunderstanding.
One factor could be the tone of the request, that indeed needed to
be harsh in order to have a chance to be clear and effective. The
other may be their fear of Plan A1, because of their conviction of
the necessity for them to practice their goodness in the way they
are doing because they may be going to hell if they don't.
Either way, many of these good people would usually interpret A2 as
if I was really sending them to hell, as their hearing of such words
from my part is already a hell for them ; which leads them to see me
as an evil bastard if I dared that.
As for their own plan, that of their dream, it may have been one of :
- A3 = Their help is useful to me
- A4 = Step 2 = I still go to hell (as the possibility of
avoiding it is not even considered, since it is supposed to be
out of anyone's control anyway) but without feeling the pain of
it, or, even if I do, I need to understand that hell is okay and
I should not complain about it anyway.
Though, depending on the exact philosophy of these good helping
people, the distinction between A3 and A4 is not always clear (as
the very purpose of some of the good people's help may be to kindly
advise me to succeed in A4, which in their opinion should not be a
problem if only I accepted their kind invitation to do so). The
problem is, in spite of their good wishes and faith for the
possibility for me to succeed A3/A4, this success may actually
depend on circumstances escaping anyone's control (either social
circumstances, such as the event of there being a good match, or
genetic circumstances such as personal tastes, needs or abilities
which may wildly differ between people) ; how to cope with failure
will be the object of Plan B.
An interesting thing here is to observe the contrast between two
aspects of the usual teachings of spiritual people: they consider
that, at the same time:
- If I happen to find myself in hell, anyway this should not be
a problem since the whole stuff of spirituality, that they find
it good to put on my shoulders to learn, is that I should
convince myself that hell is okay and I should not complain
about it anyway ;
- On the other hand, just if I dare to reject or criticize their
"kind advice" or complain about anything in life with any
expression of anger or resentment, it is their duty to perceive
my attitude as a hell for them, as if I was actually sending
them to hell, even if I'm not doing anything to actually lead
them there.
Such a contrast may be considered strange indeed, something like "do
what I say, not what I do": why do they think I should force myself
to bear hell as something okay no matter how hard it concretely is,
if they refuse to make themselves any effort to bear and be okay
with something that is only hard words that did not even intend to
actually harm them in any way ? This discrepancy can be explained as
due to the nature of their particular philosophy, the specific list
of values they believe should be admitted, as opposed to those they
believe should be rejected.
Namely, as it occurred to them, seemingly by the mere force of
cultural accidents and what teachings happened to "work" best in
making their preachers feel good (or more precisely, comfort
themselves on their positions) and spread to others (rather than any
well-examined reason, since it is usually not much in the culture or
abilities of spiritual people to closely examine things in any
rational manner), the very core of their spiritual values is to
consider any attitude of anger and resentment, which I was trying to
express there, as the most evil thing on earth, the nature and
source of all evil, over the role of any concrete circumstancial
factor. So, they think I should be okay with concrete hellish
circumstances because it is in their list of spiritual values to
force oneself to be okay with concrete hellish circumstances, while
they make it a virtue to not tolerate my disagreements, criticim or
expressions of anger and resentment (report of the effective
troubles I suffered in life), to see me as an evil bastard for
daring to express them, and be oversensitive to these expressions
while blaming me for the pain they feel in their ears when I dare to
express these things, just because expressions of criticism, anger
or resentment do not happen to be in the list of things they
consider morally valuable to be okay with, but on the contrary, on
the list of things to be most horrified with, where those who dare
uttering these things should be considered most guilty for.
Then, since these particular attitudes come from the particular
features of the spiritual doctrines that they found right to follow,
we might be tempted to question the relevance of these doctrines,
and whether they really are the right ones to follow. On this issue,
their line of defense is clear : their teaching must be right
because it explicitly, formally calls to develop compassion and
assistance to the miserables and the victims of destiny, and to
blame all authors of acts of abuse, selfishness and hypocrisy. Who
can be against this ? Thus, anyone trying to criticize or depart
from these doctrines must surely be greedy, selfish and heartless.
A little problem here, we might be tempted to wonder, would be : how
can we correctly identify who are the poor victims of destiny or of
the wrong actions of others, and who are the hypocritical profiteers
causing the harm in the world, if the effective method to quickly
assess people we don't know much yet (as we so often need to do) is
by the degree of anger or resentment they express : are the
hypocritical profiteers who mindlessly destroyed the life of
innocent others for their profit, naturally going to be identified
by their harder degree of anger, resentment and eagerness to
criticize, while the miserable victims of these actions will be
identified by the peace of their heart and the sweetness of their
words ? Fortunately, we can forget about this detail because, asking
ourself too many technical questions of this sort is something that
spirituality warns us against, as millenia of experience by so many
spiritual masters can testify that such questionings would be mere
expression of our impure, egoistic human rationalizations, and
dangerous for our health, as it may make us lose the proper
direction to find and keep peace and serenity in our hearts; as this
is shown by due experience, we just need to trust and admit this
fact as verified by experience, even if we don't rationally
understand what makes it work, leaving it as a spiritual mystery
above human intelligence.
Let us continue. When Plan A fails, I find myself in need to try:
- Plan B = Step 3 = I pray God to send them to hell after death,
for their goodness which caused the failure of Plan A1/A2 (while
Plans A3/A4 happened to fail for independent reasons)
Some people might consider this objectionable by the fact that,
at this step, I do really wish them to go to hell for their goodness, which is
no more a mere misunderstanding, unlike the case of Plan A2.
However, this observation still needs to be balanced by the following facts:
- Despite the depth of my wish, I still do not have any
effective power to send them to hell, since it will still depend
on God to decide whether to fulfill this wish or not. I cannot
even access nor search for any scientific evidence for any
measure of the likeliness of such a fulfillment. All I have
available is my own natural skepticism as regards the
possibility for myself to really feel well in heaven in case I
will have the misfortune to find them there.
Indeed, how could I make sense of this, if not as meaning that
God actually approved their way of destroying my life by the
hits of their kindness ? so that, somehow, they were actually
"right" in doing so ; in other words, that God really did find
it good and right to persecute me and destroy my life that way
(as he gives peace and serenity to those who did it), an act
which turned out to be effective by the very way in which I
accepted to be good (to listen, trust and follow their kind
advice) in the way they insisted I should work to be good --
even though I did not even harm anyone yet with my goodness,
except myself (or am I guilty of harming them by my way of
destroying myself following their advice ? we will discuss that
later)
Thus, in case this natural skepticism had any real ground in the
supernatural realm, it would logically push God into the dilemma
of having to choose who of us may more legitimately be admitted
there. Some might insist that God is so great he could still
find ways to admit both despite of the contradiction, such as by
splitting heaven into separate cells. However I'm afraid, that,
to be honest, I would have to see it not as something great but
rather as a fraud. And how might God react if I undertook to
denounce that fraud by threatening to boycott heaven until that
injustice is repaired ? Who of us would have a more legitimate
place there, finally ?
- Remember that this plan was not my first choice : for me, it
is only Plan B, and only coming because they did effectively
send me to hell for my gooness first and are totally unrepentant
for this fact. My real preference was for Plan A1. It was their choice
to reject Plan A1 as unacceptable, which turned out to lead to the necessity of Plan
B.
- More precisely, their problem is that when they came to urge me with their
formal guarantee that it would necessarily be much better for me to follow the
path they presented to me, they never formally stipulated in the contract that,
notwithstanding the strength of the certainty and commitment they were displaying,
they still were not offering to back up their promise (for which they were requesting
me to sacrifice a big deal of my earthly life) by a readiness to go to hell after their
death for the case my acceptance of their direction would actually lead my life to
disaster, so committing their eternal one in the same pack (it looks like, they were
too busy putting forward the conviction that they were right, to ever think about any
Plan B for the case they weren't, which also seem too conterfactual to them to think
about). Indeed, just a care from them to notify this to me could have let me the chance
to assess their deal in a more balanced manner, so as to avoid this trouble between us.
So by lack of such notification I find it logical for them to carry their responsibility in the
way their deal actually looked like.
- By the way, why should it be considered bad if God actually
fulfills my wish of sending them to hell ? This question may
be split into the following 2 sub-questions:
- What problem would they have if they were sent to hell ?
Would it happen that... they don't like hell ? Maybe, this is
the root of their problem : that they don't like hell. Maybe
thus, what they need is to care learning to like hell, or at
least to be okay with it (or in a last option, just stop
complaining about it anyway), in the same way they found it
good to invite me to be okay with the hell in which they
kindly invited me.
- Anyway, why should it matter whether they will like hell or
not ? After all, they are the first ones in the business of
seeing it good to not worry whether I could manage to feel
well in the hell where they kindly invited me at first, to
such a point that they did not even see it worth developing
any after sales service to inquire whether or not their kind
advice to me to accept being okay in hell, turned out to be
actually useful or not.
We can understand how hard it would be for people who are not
themselves victims of a given trouble (result of their own kind
advice), and who naturally feel confident, from their personal
experience, of the benefits of the advice they are giving, to figure
out the need to offer an after sales service and carry out in this
way a genuine scientific investigation on the real consequences of
their advice, which may differ from their own experience and prior
assumptions. They might try to excuse their lack of such an after
sales service in the following ways :
- They did not see their service as a sale, since they did not
intend to draw from it any personal benefit, except of course
the satisfaction of having provided their help as an act of pure
goodness with no strings attached (and thus no responsibility
attached either), which is actually what has the highest value
in their eyes (it is just priceless);
- They so confidently felt competent and/or good enough at what
they did, that they don't see the need to bother going to check
it in case it wasn't true.
- At least, they don't see this task as a priority of time
dedication, as compared with their other life missions, since
they are rather busy people, like everybody ;
- And even if they did investigate and discovered this way their
past mistake, it would be too late anyway to repair it (opting
for Plan A1).
And they may deny responsibilty by the following arguments :
- Depending on particular cases, some keep believing they did
the right thing anyway, and it is "not their fault" if
circumstances made it turn out differently from their
expectation, i.e. maybe it is my own fault instead. Implicitly,
they may have felt that their help to me was something like a
prayer to God, where all what matters is the good intention and
there is no risk to pray in a wrong way because "God translates
prayers", and does not fulfill the unwise ones but always does
what is really good instead. So, it must be my fault (my
misunderstaning of their intention) if the result of my
application of their advice differs from their expectation of
it, or if I still chose to apply it even though I faced diferent
circumstances than those they thought of.
- Or they retrospectively claim incompetence, but still do not
repent for their past failure to effectively declare themselves
incompetent as they were; once it is too late, they might try to
deny their past failure of recognizing their incompetence, as if
they never meant to speak seriously and had let me free and
responsible for my fate, as if it was my fault if I accepted to
mistake them as more serious than they really were, as they
kindly invited me to mistake them (as they unseriously felt
divinely confident that any refusal to mistake them as such,
would obviously have been mere manifestations of
closed-mindedness and hard-heartedness).
- They see it right to blame or reject my testimony instead of
starting to hear and understand my report of what was wrong with
what they did to me, in the name of "everyone has a right to
their own opinions" or by blaming me for my "negativity" and
thus being confident that I am the one in need to receive
lessons of spirituality from them instead of them from me.
However, the point is that they did claim competence and
responsibility in their advice, and such claims ought not to be done
in vain; denying responsibility after this, is incoherent with
previous claims of competence which, if it meant to be fair, would
have needed being backed up by scientific studies to genuinely mean
the serious knowledge they claimed to mean, and which they insisted
I should trust if I wanted to behave as a good person.
Moreover in the long term, this lack of an after sales service is
the very thing which feeds the perpetual repetition of the same
mistakes generation after generation, by making them unfalsifiable;
and thus this is finally what caused this trouble, in the sense that
previous generations failed to detect and cure that mistake on time
to apply the lesson in their management of my case. Indeed, those
who commit this mistake (failure to accept Plan A1) not having a
chance to suffer or even hear the news of the effect of this
mistake, never happen to learn from it (the reasons of the need to
accept Plan A1, at least in a number of cases), which is what makes
them all the more confident to repeat it. That could have helped
them figure out the reasons to look at A1 as a possible first choice
as I meant it had to be seen (I mean retrospectively, through the
needed scientific investigations needed to fairly back up the
higher competence over me they claimed to have while forcefully shying me
from following my own natural knowledge of my own need, while
by lack of solid experience I was not in a position to clearly resist them
to their satisfaction by backing my natural intuition with the required
scientific references to stand verbal confrontation with them in their
authoritative mission of messing with my life), instead of their stupid way
of complaining against Plan B as if it had been my own natural
choice, while incorrectly denying their responsibility in it.
So we just observed how my way of being clear and explicit in
sending them to hell for their goodness, makes it naturally less
effective, in addition to making it harder for me to undertake ; on
the other hand, their more hidden ways (hidden from their own
conscience) of sending me to hell for my goodness, contribute to
make them more effective. They hide this in 2 ways:
- (Step 2) They sent me to hell for my goodness by their way of
believing that they were sending me to heaven instead, since
they mistook which way was leading where : the mistake is what
is effective in making me follow the way to hell by assuming it
was not leading there.
- (Step 4) And then after I find myself in necessity to adopt
Plan B, they will come to really see me as deserving hell, while
they keep believing that they have the wisdom of seeing the
"good people" (who follow their advice) as not deserving it,
because they misinterpret my adoption of plan B, as if it was a
sign of badness from my part (an over-rejection of their kind
spiritual advice to be okay with hell), that is the opposite of
what it really is (an effective consequence of my initial
goodness, which they insisted I should follow, of having
accepted to go too far in hell following their kind advice).
Thus, even if I might try to deny deserving hell as this time
they do believe I deserve, or as they believe I chose to send
myself there without their push, their sincerity in their way of
seeing me as a bad person, which I have not any readily
available power to refute in the satisfaction of their eyes no
matter where the truth really is, is still a dreadful tool to
cover me with shame and thus push me back to hell all over
again, as it effectively makes me feel as if, not only I really
deserved hell (may it be for the mere crime of having sent
myself there without their push which they deny having done, so
that here the victim-accusator is going to be the most dreadful
of all because it is the only one I cannot run away from:
myself), but also as if the moral reason for my deserving hell
would not be my goodness (which could be seen as extenuating
circumstances for the crimes it might lead to), but a lack of
goodness (while it may be harder to make them feel that they
really deserve hell if only for their goodness).
The mistakes that these reasons are based on
We can see that each of the 4 cases of "need/reason to send the
other to hell for his goodness" is actually based on mistake, but
all in different ways from a case to the other:
- I failed to send them to hell in the first place because I was
too good; if I did, however, it would not have been meant
litterally; seeing it litterally would have been their
misinterpretation;
- They kindly invite me on the way to hell as they mistake which
way goes where;
- I think they deserve hell not just for their goodness but for
having committed the previous mistake on the way (while they
might like to see their intention as more important than the
effective result in how I should judge them, so that it looks as
if it was just for their goodness);
- They think (and would almost manage to persuade me that) I
deserve hell as they mistake the appearing effects of my
goodness as if they were expressions of badness.
But of all these mistakes, only one could be mine (of my weakness, my faulty lack
of distrust against them),
in Step 1, but it was the mistake of NOT sending them to hell for
their goodness, while I'd have better done it for the benefit of all.
(It may be even unclear whose mistake
is it that I failed to send them to hell in the first place, since
it is technically mine but I was not in a position to confirm my intuition
with the sufficient amount of scientific data while they claimed
and seemed to have competence and they really
seemed to not want me to send them to hell then)
Possible matters of dispute
One question may be : who is committing the worst fault of
misinterpreting the other: is it their fault if they tell me the
wrong advice by not interpreting my needs correctly ? Of is it my
fault if I did not correctly adapt my needs to the help these nice
people were willing to bring, so I am misinterpreting their help by
my way of having the circumstances of my life so different from
their expectations that I would happen to find hell at the end of
the path I tried to follow at their request, while it wasn't their
intention to send me there ?
Then: are these fault things one should be considered guilty of
? A trouble would no be a guilt when if these accidents
indeed happened at random, with no meaningful way to trace
responsibilities, or they were exceptional or soon corrected after
happening by "taking lesson" from them.
Then : does it morally matter or not, whose mistakes are these ?
After all, whatever is a mistake can be seen as sheer accident that
nobody is morally responsible for.
In a sense, people can't be held guilty for circumstances beyond
their control or awareness. However, the question whether something
is indeed under someone's control or not, can itself be a matter of
dispute. And a tricky one since people are often eager to take for
granted their own view on the issue and reluctant to consider a
different view as a candidate worth consideration for which we may
need a debate and a sort of objective method to resolve it and prove
who is right.
In particular, we may face an unsolvable disagreement on whether I
could succeed to feel okay in the hell where I went following their
invitation if I really wanted to: it seems none of us can have any
way of convincing the other. Or, under whose control were the
effects after I try to follow some advice, since people are not
naturally eager to take responsibility for what they don't expect to
happen in someone else's life.
Am I the evil person, guilty of trying to disturb their conscience
by my way of challenging the perfection and serenity of their kind
advice by my testimony of their bad consequences over my life
(either the concrete consequences or what I felt about them) which
shouldn't happen in their view) ?
Another possible matter of dispute (or wonder, as this one is not
really 2 views with supporters but rather 2 aspects of a common
picture) is the following:
The problem with the fault of giving bad advice is that it actually
occurs in a systematic manner, as the elaborate results of specific
ideologies where members do not directly intend to commit such
mistakes but are systematically led by these ideologies to do so;
and they are never corrected, because the victims, who get "the
lesson" in the face, are not the same as those who commit the
mistakes, and the latter are not interested to listen. Then the
questions are: who is actively spreading and promoting these
ideologies ? is anyone taking profit from these ideologies (may it
be because of the specific property of these ideologies to
systematically lead to such mistakes, or for other reasons) ? and is
there any systematic correlation or causality relation between
benefiting from these ideologies or their side effect, and actively
promoting them, such as, people are motivated to promote them by the
very fact that they take profit from this and even from the specific
property of these ideologies to systematically produce such mistakes
?
Actually, the answer will often turn out to be yes : people find
themselves motivated to propagate ideologies which systematically
leads them to commit such mistakes, due to the very fact that
through these very mistakes that it leads them to commit, they are
making a profit. Even if they have no conscious understanderstanding
of this chain of causalities, so that it all occurs "behind their
back", to the point that they would very sincerely immediately
dismiss as utterly ridiculous any attempt to report such mechanisms.
In these conditions, should they be seen guilty or innocent ? Very
tricky moral issue, isn't it ?
Comparison with drunk driving
The situation in this world is comparable to that of a world where
it would be legal and commonplace to drive drunk. The main defect
in the comparison is that, in our world, drivers usually suffer their own
accidents as well. For the sake of a more valid comparison, let us imagine
a world where they don't: many accidents would happen where drunk drivers would
bump pedestrians causing them serious injuries, or other cars would
have accidents as a consequence of their behavior, but these drivers
would not be worried for doing so nor would be injured themselves
when they injure someone else. Now the point is that such a world is possible where the right
to drive while drunk would not be questioned. The analogy may seem ridiculous
to us based on our widespread cultural awareness that drunk driving is obviously wrong.
Actually the analogy is much deeper and more valid than one could naively guess, as a
deeper analysis can reveal that this cultural awareness is a mere accident compared to
similar cases where such awareness does not occur. Namely, many of the same arguments
usually involved to justify lots of dangerous behaviors in our world could serve to justify drunk
driving in such an hypothetical world as well, such as:
- Drunk driving is okay because many times, drunk drivers are
not causing accidents (at least none they can recognize their
responsibility in); there is no reason to condemn someone for
doing something which did not cause any accident
- Based on the testimony of many drunk drivers telling that
their behavior is good, those with whom accidents may happen
should not be guilty either because they are behaving the same
and cannot be aware of, nor be responsible for, things happening
differently as a result; it would be unfair to blame some people
more than others while they followed the same methods, just
because of different circumstances beyond their control
- They are very careful and dedicated to the task of making life
feel good by their way of drinking a lot of alcohol
- When people cry of pain after an accident and try to complain,
it usually appears that they are not drinking enough alcohol to
forget their problems
- People crying after being injured in an accident, as well as
people demonstrating against the use of alcohol, are disturbing
the traffic by their behavior, so that they may be the causes of
troubles as well
- It is dangerous to cry after having got an accident because
statistics show that the people who cry the loudest just after
the accident are more likely to suffer long-term injuries as
well.
- People having an accident which they attribute as an effect to
the behavior of drunk drivers, were misinterpreting by their
accident the intention of drivers who never intended to cause it
by their care to drink a lot of alcohol for seeing life in a
positive manner
- There are some greedy resellers around trying to abuse the people and make unfair profit
by selling adulterated alcohol, which may induce adverse effects
such as vomiting. So, you need to be careful to only share
traffic with people who drank a good kind of alcohol, and abstain from
any hasty generalization (while, if anything tragic once occurred even with
someone who drank a good kind of alcohol, it can only have been a matter of accident).
- Everyone has a right to have their own opinion; it would be
arrogant from the part of sober people trying to complain about
an accident, to try putting forward their viewpoint above the
one of drunk people, as if the viewpoint of drunk people was not
be equally legitimate.
- Moreover, the viewpoint of drunk drivers is a more positive
one, of people who found how to feel well and thus can teach it
to others, than that of injured people
(to be continued)
Examples
To be developed later, but in very brief.
In global issues : goodness is what led to religion and religious
wars ; what has put a selective
pressure against the intelligence level of mankind (section
"The means to change man") and many other collateral damages that
are grounds of legitimate
anger. Goodness is what produced the
Soviet Union. It is also what leads to overpopulation (by
making more miserable people survive), which may be the main cause
of the destruction of the planet.
In my own life : I will never forgive to : all people who found it
good to politically oblige me to go to school (especially secondary
school) in the same classes as stupid children whose pleasure was to
tease and persecute me so often because of their jealousy and my
difference ; who found it good to oblige me to follow all
school duties up to PhD in the name of my "ambition to become
scientist", because, adding this to the fact that it made me
desperate to dedicate my little free time to my real discovery of
science, it did not let me also the time or energy to run after
girls (which I was too shy to do anyway); all the Christians who
found it good to preach me the Gospel, pretended that there would be
anything good in being Christian, and who let me think that the
priority of my life should be to search for God and follow their
teaching instead of running after girls, which effectively condemned
me to long-life loneliness. I will never forgive all the people who
pretend to have any meaningful understanding / organization of
morality and charity concerns but, despite of this, found it good to
passively let the world the hell it is (while it would have been so
cheap to change it if only anyone cared) in this way : they failed
to provide a home to persecuted
geniuses; they refused to understand and help the nice worthy
desperate singles to find their love, as if there were not millions
of good lives absurdly destroyed by the current law of the jungle in
this field, so as to make it look as if the world was not as crual
as it really is, thus putting the naive serious people in danger of
failing to defend their own life with all their natural energy. I
will never forgive anyone who said anything good about psychiatry and that I
should try it in case it would help me out of depression, as this is
how I was tricked by these hypocrites into poisoning my brain with
life-long damage. I would be shocked to find any of these bastards
in heaven. Not because they are not good, but because they are
deeply, authentically good, and their deeply authentic goodness is
precisely what is evil in them.
Now you are welcome to call me a "bad person" however you like:
anyway I will take it as a compliment. That will change nothing of
what I know about myself : that my current anger and misanthropy
actually results from both having been naturally very good (shy and
unable to suspect anything wrong in others) and having cared to be
good in the way the world requested me to be good, as they foolishly
insisted that this was what I absolutely needed for earning their
respect. That I tried it much more seriously than they can imagine,
but this is precisely what brought me to the exactly opposite effect
to the one promised. Now I wish so much there were more such "bad
people" around : this is what could have made the world a more
decent place to live in.
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